“Allah! There is no god but He, the Living, the Self-subsisting, Eternal. No slumber can seize Him nor sleep. His are all things in the heavens and on earth. Who is there can intercede in His presence except as He permits? He knows what (appears to His creatures as) before or after or behind them. Nor shall they compass aught of His knowledge except as He wills. His Throne does extend over the heavens and the earth, and He feels no fatigue in guarding and preserving them for He is the Most High, the Supreme (in glory).” (Surat al-Baqara, 2:255)

Saturday, 25 April 2015



Heyya everybody.
how's life?
Hopefully everything is good for us.

Long time not seeing this blog.
I am hibernating because there is nothing new to be shared right here.
I had just finished a book entitled 'Kesayangan' by Ustazah Fatimah Syarha and her husband.
Lots of thing that I've learned from it.
It teaches me to always look at the bright side.
As people says everything happened for a reason.
Now, the way I look at things changes180 degree.
Everytime I face difficulties in life, I tried my best to find the silver lining behind them.
Life is not easy.
Wallahi its not easy.
But Allah has promised that indeed with difficulties there is ease.
Have faith in Him.
For He is All Knowing.
He knows what is best for us.

For once in life, I feel free from the fear of losing.
Be it losing of the loved ones, losing of belongings or losing of comfort zone.
I wanna tell you a story.
many years ago I fell in love with a guy and to be honest I still love him.
But, maybe fate is not on my side.
The love was an unreciprocated one.
and now, I believe he is seeing another girl.
At first I felt so sad and I can't accept that fact.
I cried myself to sleep for days.
But, now, I see that thing from a different angle.
  If he is not for me, then it's okay.
Allah will replace him with someone better.
Slowly, I accept the fact and move on.
It's not that he is not a good man but maybe he is just not good for me.
Maybe there is someone else out there who is destined to fulfill half of my deen.
I just need to be patient and make lotsa duas.
"Have faith. Have faith. Have faith."
I keep telling myself.
Or maybe one day, Allah will open his heart for me.
I don't know.
I just prayed that Allah will bestow only goodness on me.
On us.

Got to go.
See ya later.
Salam alaik.   :))

Monday, 6 October 2014

Love, Relationship and Sacrifices

Hello dearies.
I have just started my master program.
Quite busy recently.

Well. How's life so far?
Mine was beyond awesome.
Hamdan lillah.
I Hope everything will keep being this smooth for me.

Undeniably, life gets a lil bit lonely.
And when I started to whine about it,
My bestie, Sha told me that I should find a boyfriend.
An online boyfriend perhaps.
I just laughed and said no.
I don't think that's one of ways for me to find my imam.
Online dating? Oh hell no.
I am not only skeptic about this online thingy but there is another reason behind my no.
Which I didn't spell out to Sha.

I decided that I don't want coupling.
Regardless it in an online relationship or a real one.
I just don't want to involve in any of them.
As I grow older, I realise something that I missed out before.
What is important is not how much that we have but how much barakah is in what we do have.
Yup. Its barakah.
If I am going to have a relationship, I want a relationship which have lotsa barakah in it.
So that it'll last till jannah. Biiznillah.
Actually the way I see a relationship now has saved me from lotsa sufferings and heartbroken.
I start to live more happily and full of positivity.
Love should only start after marriage.
How do we find our other half if we're not coupling?
Have you watched Entangled?
The princess didn't even left her tower yet she still met her prince charming.
That's what we called fate.
Allah has decreed about our spouse,death, and rizqi even before we were borned.
You just have to have faith in that.
So,we just have to wait without doing anything?
Of course not.
Everything in life doesn't come free of charge my dear.
It needs lotsa efforts.
What we can do is to prepare ourselves.
Gain as much knowledge as possible.
Be it about your deen, about parenting, about fiqh and so on.
Improve our ibadah and akhlaq (manners) whether in real world or in cyberspace.
Both mirrored our level of integrity.
Then, of course sujood and make lotsa dua.
Why dua is important?
We as human only can see and value the outer appearance of a person.
Regardless of how many years we went for dates, what we saw was just the outer personality of our bf/gf.
The one who knows their hearts and true colours is just the one and only, Al-'Alim- (The Omniscient).
So, dua is very important.
Through dua, we ask our Creator to judge and choose the best person for us.
For He is All-Knowing. Whose choice can compared to His, aite?
So, do our parts and leave the rest to our Lord, Ar-Rahman & Ar-Rahim.
Have faith. Rock your iman! *peace*

p/s: Falling in love isn't a sin for it is fitrah. But it is the way we handle it which leads to jannah or hellfire.
       Fi Hifzillah.

Q: But now I am already in a relationship, what should I do?
Don't worry everyone makes mistakes.
Me,too, used to have lotsa mistakes.Again and again.
Even I did the same mistakes and it takes me 9 years to realize that I am on the wrong track.
End your relationship. I know it is probably the hardest thing to do.
Been there, done that dear.
But if we leave something for the sake of Allah, He'll replace it with something better.
Have faith. a big faith.
And after all you have nothing to loose.
If both of you are destined to be together, Allah will reunite both of you again, in a more barakah way.InshaAllah.
If not, then, it means no and it proves that no matter how long you stay in that relationship, it is just a waste of time since both of you are not meant to be together in the end.
So, do some sacrifices today. For Allah sake and I promise you won't regret them.
Most important, Stay steadfast.Stay strong. May Allah bless. *big hugs*

Saturday, 16 August 2014

Tazkiyatun Nafs


Heyya everybody!

It has been a while that I don't blog.
I have been too occupied with the tumblr.
Jakun dapat Tumblr. Haha. 😜

I delete all the previous posts.
I wanna start new.
A new chapter.
A new me.

I wanna write something that is able to inspire people.
No more emotional posts.
No more negativity.
I wanna share only the beneficial stuffs.
Hopefully they will be my "saham akhirat" on the Day of Judgement.

Have you ever felt broken inside.Felt like you wanna give up.
Like there is no hope.
Like there is no use of doing good deeds since no one ever appreciate what we are doing.
Like why bother to 'jaga hati orang' since they don't do the same thing to us.
I believe every each of us have been gone through all these situations.
And I need to admit sometimes I also do suffer from these negative feelings.
Feeling defeated.
Feeling hopeless.
Feeling betrayed.

Tazkiyatun Nafs.
Tazkiyatun Nafs plays an important role in order for us to defeat these unwanted feelings.
In order to be a super hero, we are not necessarily going to Palestine and be a combat there.
Inside ourselves there is a more dangerous enemy awaits.
Our nafs.
Yup.the unseen enemy.
If we scrutinize our life properly, we will come to aware that not every heart beat goes without us need to make choices. 
 "Life is about choices" My dad used to tell me.
"Hidup adalah pilihan."
Especially as a Muslim, we are facing so many things that we need to decide wisely.
Even when it comes to our food, we still need to choose food which is halal and thoyyibah.
See. we as a Muslim need to make the best choice even on a trivia thing in life. 
Okay. Back to tazkiyatun nafs.
It is about fighting our nafs.
Inside our soul, there is a constant battle between good and bad.
We need to fight to always choose the good ones.
We need to learn on how to control our emotions and all the bad temptations.
This is what we called tazkiyatun nafs.

Wallahi it's not easy.
It will scatter us.
It will stab us from every angle.
It will hurt us all the time.

But its gonna worth the pain.
Nak syurga bukan senang kan?
We need to fight to get there.

Lets strive to be a better Muslimah.
Don't wait, lets start now!
Join me and lets be mujahidah!

Rock your iman bebeh!